It's not that i hate it, i just don't want it to come
I want to go back to where we started it but then it will mean that i must go through the hardest part again
I can't do it, Mi
It's just too hard
But if i let this christmas come, there will be so much distance between your presence before and my life time now
I will miss you too much that i can't breath
It's just too hard, Mi
I don't know where should i go
Stay in the past or keep moving to the future?
I miss you till it hurts
I try to stay in touch with the world but all i want is to hold you
Part of me has died since then
It's like a never ending nightmare
If only i can let it go
I have tried, Mi
I am trying to stay alive
I am trying to laugh and love again
But the world seems like a big crowded place with me alone in the middle
I survive but i am in pieces
The further the distance, the harder it will be
I don't want this christmas to come
At least not now
Will it be merry too when there is no you?
