Monkey

A beautiful song is heard as we are approaching each other.
I close my eyes, take my time, and enjoy the moment.
I take a deep breath as I sense your presence.
I wish I could save your scent like I save your picture.
I open my eyes and I see that you are there.
You talk to me, smile at me, and we even laugh together.
You stand by me and we are just as far as a wind blows.
But how can I still miss you so bad?
I look at you and I wish everything freezes.
I wish clock stop ticking at this moment.
There was a time when I felt so down and thought that things will never get better as he left me.
But then time has brought sun back to me and kissed me with hope and faith.
I fly to cloud nine as my heart is finally freed.
You bring me here, monkey.
You release my pain.
You bring me to the way out of my misery.
You give my laughter back to where it's supposed to be.
You show me that you are there and handle me with care.
Dear monkey, I wish this world is upside down so that our destiny and faith can turn upside down as well.
I think this is our fate that God make us here and let you bring me back to my happy sanity.
I know that you will not stay here with me forever, dear.
I know that your heart is not mine to keep.
I know that I'm not for you to have.
But this special little moment we have has brought me heaven.
One day, dear monkey, in a lovely rain and a beautiful night, I will bring the heaven you brought me to the knight that soon will keep my heart with his life.
And monkey will always be there with me.
Being kept in my heart and stay in my memory.

Darn! It's Raining Again.

I look outside through the window.
It's dark, but the light from the street lamp and from the building makes a sparkling colorful beam.
I love the view.
It feels so damn romantic.
I love the feeling.
Then I remember you.
I smile.
I love night. It always reminds me of you.
Because every time I want to sleep, I think about you.
I wish you could come into my dream and stay there with me.
But it never happens, not in my real life, not in my dream.
I watch the moon, it is full moon.
Then I see your face there.
I close my eyes, hoping that I can absorb your presence.
But you don't even show up.
I breath your name, hoping so much that you will listen.
But you only take a glance. Then you make a distance.
What have I done?
Have I sacrificed my heart for something you don't even feel?
Have I wasted my tears for something not even real?
Suddenly thunder roars. I look up and see droplets fall from above.
Droplets kiss my window, make a stream just like a river.
I watch it as the rain fall down and kiss the soil.
I blow at the window to make a fog.
Then I write down your name slowly, hoping that your heart is touched and you can feel me.
But then I remember, your heart is not mine to keep.
So I blow on your name, until it is covered by fog again.
I close my eyes and wipe your name on the window with my hand.
I wish all sweet memories could disappear as your name wiped by the rain.
it's raining outside... As it's raining inside.