My Partner In Crime

Let me tell you about this criminal.
He's cold if you're one of them who's not close to him.
He can be intimidating, well he's trying to, but he must have realized that it never works on me.
He always seems to do everything perfectly.
No wonder he looks skinny recently.
Does he know that the brain used up more than 25 % of energy?
He doesn't seem to eat enough and he works really hard.
I wish i could transfer my fat to him and that would be one best symbiotic mutualism for both of us.

He's such a demanding partner.
I told him there's such thing like "take and give" but it seems that he doesn't like the concept.
In one of the promises he made, he said that he will do it soon and he just needs time to find something special for a special one. But i think he's just trying to get away from it.
Well, people call him "boss", that's what he is actually.
But does that give him an excuse to demand me of being a nice obedient understanding friend while on the contrary he never let me have the satisfaction of having a partner anyway?

He's private and personal.
It's not easy to get close to a person like that.
However, once we get along, i have figured out that behind that cold and calm person on the outside, there's a very sweet, polite, caring, patient, funny and playful person inside.
He told me once that i was such a serious person who likes to look down on note as if there's something important.
Well look who's talking.
I was there in front of him, gave him a smile and he acted like he never had a private lunch of two with me before.
Of course, after telling him that, he tried to make it up to me by giving a smile, a virtual smile. That's not enough though but what can i say? I'm just too kind.
Well, you can say that he's lucky to have me as his partner.
He must have cast a spell on me because i have never been this generous before.

Considering our differences in one and another way, he asked me once about the possibilities of us being fixed to each other or finding the chemistry in our relationship built by two persons whose personalities are so much different.
He must have seen the way i look at it.
It's simply perfect and fun for me and i want to keep it that way.
But i don't think he sees me the same way i do.
I must be something unimportant and small in his eyes that he doesn't need to care at all.

Then after all this enjoyable, funny and silly times i had with my partner, he's changed lately.
He will deny it, that's okay.
I just think he did.
He used to start with funny comments or a joke and we'll discuss over stupid silly things for hours, even days.
I laughed a lot.
It felt like having another comfort zone to escape from daily life.
I have a good life, but it is always great to have two.
It just made my days better and brighter.
I miss that actually.
As Todd said to Haven that it was okay to let someone play you, as long as you know what's going on.
That sentence makes a comfort sense that it is okay to be silly because it's fun as long as you know the boundaries.
I have been trying helplessly so that he can come back to me as he was before.
But it seems that i have been losing his trace.
I don't care what people call me, i just want to be with my partner.
I know what we are and what i am asking but it won't hurt anyone i suppose.
I don't want complicated issues and other package and i don't want messing up with his baggage.
But i need him.
I mean, people here can be so cruel, friends can be so fool and things can be so dull, but having him as my partner in this situation makes me stand up for myself in full.
But of course, i don't think he sees it that way. Well, he's the boss.

My partner is a busy hard worker person who will be very hard on himself just to make things perfectly done. While i am just like a little fish who's trying to swim here and there, feed my self a little, and must be very careful if i don't want to get crushed in a mossy pond full of toads.
We're different but that doesn't stop us for being together.
I had fun and enjoy the moments shared with him. It was lovely in a silly way.
I mean, yes we're partners but of course we don't walk holding hands in the park and singing stupid romantic love songs. Oh no no no. There's no way it happens. We're partners in crime.
We say stupid silly things, we make fun on each other, we tease each other, we don't get angry just because someone doesn't keep his promise, and we don't get annoyed just because something bothers her mind.
We just take a deep breath and try to understand, and sometimes one of us will sulk because of that.
We don't do drama and apparently both of us understand that we don't need one.
I think we just want to have fun.
I like having fun and apparently i like having fun with him.

And then this valentine's day is coming up.
I marked it on my partner's calendar but i don't think it will do me any good.
I will expect nothing for that day, that's better than to give a little hope and dissapoint later.
I know i am not his best friend.
i may not even the only partner he has, that's obvious.
With all he is i mentioned above, i still don't know why i love being with him.
Well he's not my best friend either but he's the only partner i have and it makes him the best of it.
But it's valentine's, is it too much to ask him whether he takes me for a fool or whether he really cares?