Dear Love

It has been such a long time I keep this for myself.

I tell nobody except me and them. But not you and them.

why? because I am afraid that you will be scared and go away from me.

If you go, I will lose you.

If I lose you, I will feel so sad and I may cry.

So, I let you think that nothing is happening between us.

I think that you will not figure out something different in my face when I look at you or when you look at me.

I think that everything is not going to change, not a bit.

I bury this feeling so that I can be near you. So that I can talk to you and laugh with you.

I bury this feeling so that you can talk to me, stand by me, look at me, and stay with me.

I know that may sound silly.

But I just want you to feel that I am not changed at all.

I want you to think that I am the same person you know few years ago.

And I think, if you know that I am not changed at all, you will still stay with me.

But now it seems that everything has been messed up..

Everyone starts to feel something different everytime we do something together.

I am afraid.

I am scared.

And I started to think that you started to move back that time.

I thought that I would lose you.

But then here you come again.

You are still the same person I knew since a few years ago, but with a bit change.

You say no rejection although you seem to be so further.

And we act like nothing ever happened.

You are still there and I am still here.

But they start to think that something sweet in the air is falling to us.

I don't say no and neither do you.

What do you have in mind, dear love?