Welcoming 12 November

Well, hello there, we meet again.

It's been a year and lots of things had happened since then, don't you think?

Well, maybe I'm quite a lot still the same person, but believe me, I have changed.

Not just that, I have been beaten up quite a lot too, you know.

Broken heart, left alone, being ignored, taken for granted, stranded... Okay, I admit it, still the same problem here.

But hey, I learn too.

This time, I learn that if you don't want to get hurt so much, try not to think too much about things. Be spontaneous. You will have so much fun by doing it.

Stop giving expectations, that will hurt you in the end.

Start being a picky at least for the sake of your heart.

Because once you give away a piece of your heart to someone who doesn't even want it or to something that is not meant to be, you will die slowly for sure.

Yes, yes, It's hard to stop your heart beating for something that make you sad and angry.

But why should I even try?

I mean, you know that it also what makes me who I am now, don't you?

If I hadn't felt it, what would I have been?

I mean, that things also what keep me alive, don't you think?

It hurts, that's true. But I also want to live.

If I had shielded my heart from anything that could hurt it, I would have never been through many unforgettable moments in my life, I would have never learned anything and I would have never grown up.

Well, there are times that I wish it's as beautiful as Kaoru's.

I wish I don't have to say it and it's okay for me to care.

I wish I can follow the lead and let me be saved instead.

I got the picture of it in my mind but why does the road seem so much different than what I dreamt?

Sometimes I don't want to wake up but it is also by living a life that I can see it again.

It's a dilemma, yet it's a drama.

But come to think of it, I have never been failed by His mighty grace, haven't I?

In fact, I have been blessed by so many amazing and beautiful things, indeed.

I have been promised that everything will be just fine in time.

Yes, wrinkles come and stay. So what? I am still beautiful.

Yes, my age makes me feel old just by counting it. So what? Age is only numbers.

There is nothing to worry about.

So please do come and stay at least for a while.

It will always be nice to meet you again, 12 November.