I may cry sometimes. Well, I admit it, it is often actually.
It's just that sometimes I think the world is too big, the sky is too high and the edge is too steep.
I wish I could tell you everything, but there are some things I just can't say.
It's not that I don't trust you or don't love you.
You know you're always be my everything, mom.
I'm just too scared too spell it out.
You just need to hold me and let me stay with you longer.
Sometimes all I need to heal this pain is your hug.
Just being with you gives me faith that everything is going to be alright.
If you are worried, then where on earth will I find my strength?
I know you're afraid, mom. I'm afraid too.
I know you always want to protect me from anything that makes me scared or sad.
But we both know, we don't have the world in our hands, do we?
Sometimes I want to go back in your tummy, taking the feeling of being safe and sound inside you.
But this world is too amazing to be ignored and I'm too excited to explore.
I figure out that life is such an arduous journey.
I feel so tired sometimes, mom.
I wish I could stop and relax for a while.
You see, I am often left by time.
So I need to keep on moving even if it means that I have to crawl.
But you are my energy, mom.
You are my source of power.
Everytime I am dropped, I just remember you and I will get my strength back.
Yes, I cry a lot.
It's just that I feel my heart is about to explode like being over capacity or overload with so many things I can't explain, mom.
But I know you know what I have been thinking. You always do.
I know you are worried, mom. I'm worried too.
But if you are worried, how will I find my relief?
They say good things come to those who wait.
I believe miracles happen everyday.
I may feel that it seems I'm the only person on earth who can't have a simple life like most people have.
But people can have a childish thought sometimes.
I believe God will not let me stranded by myself.
I may feel lonely sometimes or die a little inside.
But I believe everything will be just fine eventually, just like how things went before.
So don't worry, mom. Your little girl will be just fine.
Manja banget hatimu ito, juga kau tetap sangat romantis dlm tulisanmu.
ReplyDeleteLungun na i ho ito, molo na i surathon mon songon na diroham. Aku mau bilang beberapa kalimat ini yg aku dapat setelah kau bilang selalulah membaca, “ Dunia ini begitu besar. Hidup begitu singkat. so many beautiful things an opportunity out there. i shall make the most of it by living each day with enthusiasm and an open mind”. Dan kau pernah bilang or orang banyak bilang, kita adalah aktor dlm hidup kita masing2". terus aku jg sering dengar "Dunia ini adalah panggung sandiwara dan jembatan kehidupan; ada pemeran pura-pura, ada pemeran yg penting, ada pemeran apa adanya". terserah kita mau apa adanya atau pura-pura.
Aku malah mau bilang, relaxlah setiap saat dan tidak perlu berhenti dari hiruk pikuk kehidupanmu. Namun luangkan waktu masuk dalam keheningan. Katanya dalam keheningan kita bisa menjadi peka terhadap lingkungan, bahkan bisa mendengar bisikan Tuhan yg kau imani. Karna manusia yg hidup dlm peradapan ini, jauh berabad-abad yang lalu masih mencari Tuhan dan takut akan Tuhan. Katanya masuk dalam keheningan yg sejenak itu, itulah hidup. Saya juga heran, masak sih itu hidup.
Happy Easter.